its been the longest since i wrote a journal. it doesnt matter if any1 reads. i just have to get this off my chest.im starting off clean. Yesturday i worked my butt to the bone. i was so weary!!!! i had tto load and unload boxes by the sizes X__x it killed me. i was REAL depressed leaving the house. i baically grew in-along with my sister-. i graduated in that house, i had my communion in that house along with my sister. she was raised in that house.my brother was born and raised there too. most of all it had loads of memories. =[ geeze when i saw all those rooms empty. i felt my heart sink.

STUPID IDEA: go thru my camera. i began to see many memories i shared with ppl in that house n i broke into tears.

i was waiting for my friend to come so she could say goodbye to the house, but she never shown up. eventually we couldnt wait any longer and we left.

we came to my grandmothers house 4 a temporary stay-in n its not the same. i couldnt see myself being any where else but home - besides this place is so small i feel closed in X____x for example my sister is in the next room and thats about 3 steps away from me.

My brother was having a great time but then all last night n today he's been being to go home. it breaks me inside to hear him cry cuz he wants to go to his home. especially when my dad says " thats not our home anymore."

i slept only for 3 hours in the last...what 34 hours. im exhausted, weary, torn, hurt, and irritated....

theres a house for rent a few houses away n im hoping my dad would take it, but he's so picky. i wouldnt blame him alot though... 800 dollars in moving and storing our stuff only to take it all back, a waste of 800 dollars??

yeah we sweated to the bone n worked extremely hard for four days, but theres an opportunity a few doors down. hard work,sweat an pain again or not, at least then we could find a new home. it'll take me a while to get use to it but hey.... changes are good right? some one tell me right cuz i cant tell which way is up anymore X__x